hapiness

hap·py /ˈhæpi/ –adjective, -pi·er, -pi·est.
1.
delighted, pleased, or glad, as over a particular thing: to be happy to see a person.
2.
characterized by or indicative of pleasure, contentment, or joy: a happy mood; a happy frame of mind.

id say thats a very general description of happy. Though dictionary.com appears to have done it, happy is not something that can be described in so many words. hapiness is this amazing euphoric feeling, that goes all throughout you and makes you want to sing . there really isnt anything better. Happines means something completely different to everyone,
to me it means to have things fall into place, and to finally feel comfortable with where you are.
at the moment, i love where iam. i finally have a boyfriend that cares about me and what i think and loves me just as much as i love him. Being with him has introduiced me to so many new friends, that i probably wouldnt've had if i wasnt with him. ive met so many people that i now consider great friends that i can trust, and its an amazing feeling.
i dont know how or why its all falling into place now, but im so glad it is,
i couldnt be happier than i am now, and i mean that.

rant.

Every girl has a type of guy that they seem to fall for, some girls fall for the sensetive boys, some fall for jocks , and some for punks. Me ive always been partial to the bad gangster boy. For some reason they attract me. But not too long ago i came to the conclusion that they all oonly had one thing in mind.. and that was fuck n chuck. But then i met this boy . the kind of gangster boy that i am so often attracted to. I figured id meet him , maybe get to know him and hope hes not like the others . All the while in my mind so sure that he was gunna be just another jerk. So we meet up, we talk and everything seems normal it seems like its just gunna be another guy who is going to be dissapointed when i dont fuck him the night i meet him. But he does something that night, that made me think, and honestly, anyone reading this is going to think im a complete moron for thinking so intensely about this one disgusting thing. He farts. like HUGE right in front of me. And it doesnt even phase him, like hes so comfortable around me that he doesnt feel the need to contain himself. Yeah maybe im a bit crazy for thinking so much about this but hey, my instincts were correct, because we are now going on one month as a couple. And i dont know, i feel like maybe, JUST maybe, this time when i say it seems different, it actually is. Im not in love with this boy yet, but i am certainly getting there, there is no question about that. With that in mind, what a perfect time for the guy that i used to like so much, but completely fucked me over, to start telling me how much he misses me and how much he wishes he could just see me in person again and just be with me to see me smile. But how, am i supposed to believe any of this bullshit? After everything that boy put me through. Including trying to steal my bestfriend from her boyfriend right after he fucked me over. He calls me, we talk things out and i tell him that he cant continue this, i have a boyfriend that means way too much to me to throw it all away on a guy that will do everything he did before , again. You dont even have to ask me how i know that, because i just know. And it didnt help that when i asked him to call me back so i could talk to him and he tells me hell call me in 10 minutes, and then three hours later still hasnt called back ? Yeah, that doesnt remind me of what you did to me before AT ALL *rolls eyes* Iwant to still be friends with him, i really do because hes not a bad guy, just a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE boyfriend. But a) my boyfriend doesnt want me talking to him and b) how can i trust him. how can i even begin!? URGH. but whatever, it really doesnt matter to me whether i keep his friendship or not, because i dont need his words fucking with my head and i definitely dont need the bullshit. I have an absolutely amazing boyfriend,. and i want to keep it that way. for a long long time.