i hate this. and most of all i HATE her. to elaborate on this, ive been having dreams lately about, when i move , he leaves me and then goes to that stupid bitch.

fuck i cant stand her. i hate the fact that he liked her at one point in time and i hate the fact that i have to leave niagara falls to move 45 mins away. I dont know if he will want to stay with me, or if my nightmares will become reality, and he will tell me that its not worth it. UGH this is so messing with my head. ive been so stressed out lately and i dont know what to do about it. i need a job, i need to go to driving school, i need to worry about passing my g2 test because its CRITICAL that i do. i need to worry about moving away from the boy i love, i need to worry about how our relationship is going to end up after i move. i ALSO have the added stress of moving to a new town, new house, new school , in my last fucking year of highschool!!! what the fuck is that. ugh. this is horrible. but anyways, ive decided that im going to try and make the most out of the months i have left in niagara falls especially with steve. i have to make the MOST out of the time i have left in the same city as him, because i dont know whats going to happen when i move, i dont know if hes going to try it out and stay with me. i love him so much, and i hope he knows that, because there is noone in the world id rather be with than him <3

and i mean that.