its amazing.
the things you find out from the people who are supposed to love you most.
i really can not believe this past week, someone who i thought was my best friend has decided that her problems are always going to be more important than mine, and you know what, im finally okay with that .. because im not going to deal with it anymore.
tell me that you wont talk to me until i breakup with my boyfriend, your joking me right?
your the one who is supposed to be there for me, but you cant even do that, so i say good riddence, and so does my entire family.
youve done this to yourself, dont come crawling back to me, because i really could never deal with it in the first place, and i dont want to be back in that position. sorry.
actually you know what, im not sorry, ive been sorry for too long and im not going to be anymore
this is all you my friend.
you deal with it. by yourself.
because i really am done, you just made it easier for me...
your fault, your problem, your mess. im done with trying to be there for you when you have no intention of being here for me, i should have seen it that way all along, and deep down i always knew, but i stuck by you, i defended you to the worlds end... not anymore.
your just a part of my past now, the best friend that never really was a friend. only when she felt like it.
well things change , and this time.. its for the better.

It has happened now.
ive moved away from the life i was becoming so comfortable with ,
ive come here now being forced to start a whole new life. but no worries, the past is still with me, my friends, my boyfriend.
Now that i have moved an hour away from my comfort zone, im a little, no, a lot scared. things arent the same here, i have to get used to living this new life. but of course, with the end of the old follows the beginning of the new.
And i dont neccissarily consider me moving away to be the end of anything.
In fact, it is the start of a bunch of great things.
the start of my first long distance relationship
the start of my journey to becoming an adult, what with getting my drivers licence and all.
and just the start of a chance to make what i want of myself.
i just got a new puppy yesterday, and he is the cutest thing. change can sometimes be good.
Of course being so far away from everyone back home is extremely hard.. there is nothing i can do about it till i graduate, so i might as well make the most of it until then.
I am more surprised in my boyfriend than anyone else, the fact that he is showing me such strength in sticking with me and having hope, makes me so happy i could cry. because he is showing a strenght that has rubbed off onto me, and helped me adapt better where i am now .
i am so proud of him.


i am really going to miss my old town, but i will be back there every chance i get.
and i know that this isnt the end, its only a new beginning.