Thursday, September 2, 2010
Stupid girls, Stupid drama.
EW
Aaron , as i described him, is a man i work with. He works as a loss prevention officer at my work. He is extremely flirty and perverted. He is much much older than i am ( i`m turning 19, hes 26) and he tried very hard to get me to give in and hook up with him while i am OBVIOUSLY currently with my wonderful boyfriend . When i blatantly rejected him from his offer for me to go to toronto (if you read my other blog you know what im talking about ) by completely ignoring his existence, he took to making fun of my boyfriend and the way he dresses mainly because he is jealous. This started to cause a big problem with me and my boyfriend because he started to think that i had feelings for aaron , which , i would like to make this PERFECTLY clear because i was obviously dillusional before... i DO NOT and NEVER DID have feelings for aaron. I thought i did , but as i said , i was MISTAKEN. definitely. but anyways, this caused a big problem for me and my boyfriend because obviously he got mad that aaron was making fun of him and i didnt do anything about it. he basically told me that he wanted to fight aaron, and i told him that if he cared about me keeping my job , then he wouldnt do something stupid like that. he doesnt really understand that his actions have consequences .
basically i just wanted to make clear that i was retracting any and all previous statements in my last blog , becasue reading them now i feel like a full blown idiot.
xoxo
Kristen
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Time and again.
Lately i have been so confused about everything. Now that i am done highschool, and im not going to college until next year, i have so much free time when im not working. Real life is forming itself in front of me and im not sure if i am ready for it, suddenly im worrying about paying bills and moving out and getting my own appartment. Things that not so long ago were just mere dreams. Living at home is not going so well lately what with my moms boyfriend and i not getting along and just the things that i have to put up with. I enjoy working where i do because i like a lot of the people that i work with, but i dont want to be working there for too much longer. I want to move out of my house and in with my boyfriend because whenever im here i feel so much better and i just feel so much more free and i just love the idea of being an adult and starting my own life, but at the same time, ive obviously lived with my mom my whole life and the thought of moving out my house is a little scary. There are a lot of things that i have to think about before i make such a decision, especially the fact that i have a lot of financial resposibilities now . One of the only reasons that i was holding back on moving before was because i had my puppy to worry about and i would definitely miss him way too much to leave him, but then my mom went and gave him away. I was completely devestated , and he was really my only reason to stay besides my mom . Anyways, i have a lot of things to think about.
P.S your fucking pathetic bitch,
get a life.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I Guess Time Flys When Youre Not Having Fun Aswell.
Im grateful though, that i do have a boyfriend who supports me, even though we have some stuff with the distance that we currently have to work through.
I cannot wait until the day where i get to take that next step into my future, and get away from all this . I dont belong here and i know i dont.
Who knows what the future has in store, i guess ill know when i go shopping.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
the things you find out from the people who are supposed to love you most.
i really can not believe this past week, someone who i thought was my best friend has decided that her problems are always going to be more important than mine, and you know what, im finally okay with that .. because im not going to deal with it anymore.
tell me that you wont talk to me until i breakup with my boyfriend, your joking me right?
your the one who is supposed to be there for me, but you cant even do that, so i say good riddence, and so does my entire family.
youve done this to yourself, dont come crawling back to me, because i really could never deal with it in the first place, and i dont want to be back in that position. sorry.
actually you know what, im not sorry, ive been sorry for too long and im not going to be anymore
this is all you my friend.
you deal with it. by yourself.
because i really am done, you just made it easier for me...
your fault, your problem, your mess. im done with trying to be there for you when you have no intention of being here for me, i should have seen it that way all along, and deep down i always knew, but i stuck by you, i defended you to the worlds end... not anymore.
your just a part of my past now, the best friend that never really was a friend. only when she felt like it.
well things change , and this time.. its for the better.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
ive moved away from the life i was becoming so comfortable with ,
ive come here now being forced to start a whole new life. but no worries, the past is still with me, my friends, my boyfriend.
Now that i have moved an hour away from my comfort zone, im a little, no, a lot scared. things arent the same here, i have to get used to living this new life. but of course, with the end of the old follows the beginning of the new.
And i dont neccissarily consider me moving away to be the end of anything.
In fact, it is the start of a bunch of great things.
the start of my first long distance relationship
the start of my journey to becoming an adult, what with getting my drivers licence and all.
and just the start of a chance to make what i want of myself.
i just got a new puppy yesterday, and he is the cutest thing. change can sometimes be good.
Of course being so far away from everyone back home is extremely hard.. there is nothing i can do about it till i graduate, so i might as well make the most of it until then.
I am more surprised in my boyfriend than anyone else, the fact that he is showing me such strength in sticking with me and having hope, makes me so happy i could cry. because he is showing a strenght that has rubbed off onto me, and helped me adapt better where i am now .
i am so proud of him.
i am really going to miss my old town, but i will be back there every chance i get.
and i know that this isnt the end, its only a new beginning.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
I realized that i wrote my last blog about my friends , and how that was all said in the rage of a bad day gone worse.
but this is no bad day, this is just something that REALLY needs to be said. Some people just need to wake up and know when to get off their high horse and realize that they are NOT the king shit. or in thise case, queen shit.
So you and your boyfriend had a little trouble. maybe it wasnt meant to be in the first place. dont try and blame everything on one party. you are as responsible as he is, actually worse. You broke up with him.
you say that you are over him and that he is erased from your life.
STOP OBSESSING ! maybe does your behaviour remind you of a certain little obsessed blonde bitch who you are now the spitting image of! the person you say you hate the most, you are most like.
GET OVER YOURSELF.
NOBODY forced you into this relationship, nobody forced you to stay in it. NOBODY IS GOING TO SYMPATHIZE WITH YOU! you are honestly the most pathetic person, what do you think calling the cops on this person is going to do ? make him want you more? make him change for you ? NO! he DOESNT WANT YOU ANYMORE. you had your chance and you blew it . This guy is one of my great friends and i really think you should stop fucking around with his head . stop being a little bitch , and get over the fact that you are BROKEN UP. kay sweetheart, do you U N D E R S T A N D that! seriously, this makes me so mad because i have to listen to your bullshit from him, and im tired of it. its so fucking stupid what your doing to him, most of the things you say he did to you, you could have easily prevented, but you DIDNT.! you decided to stay in the relationship. As much as he said and did some not nice things, LOOK AT YOURSELF. look at how you are looking for sympathy from others. seriously, get over yourself. your broken up , its done with. stop dragging this shit on. NOBODY cares. he doesnt want you, he doesnt want anything to do with you.
OH and another thing. go ahead and yell at the messenger, you tell someone something like you are going to call the cops on your ex and you expect the person you were talking to (WHO IS IS FRIEND) not to tell him ? like who the fuck do you think you are! you had absolutely no right to yell at him for that and as a matter of fact, you have absolutly no right to be opening your mouth about your ex and his family in public, aka on this blog site. you should be fucking ashamed of yourself. it is not your business to be posting online.
and you knwo what, go ahead and say that this whole thing is not my business but you know what.
that boy, who you so easily put down along with his family, IS MY BUSINESS. whether you fucking like it or not.