Thursday, September 2, 2010

Stupid girls, Stupid drama.

Okay so , I am so tired of having to deal with HIGHSCHOOL issues. we are not fucking children anymore, GROW THE FUCK UP . I dont have time to deal with you and your stupid drama . YOU ARE THE DIRT on the bottom of my shoe, what you did , is absolutely disgusting and i statnd by it when i say that it was shady and gross. you say you did it just becasue you didnt like the girl ( for anyone whos reading this, a girl who was SUPPOSED to be my best friend pulled some shady shit and started dating another girls boyfriend before they had even broke up ALL THE WHILE knowing that he had a girlfriend . ) what reason did you have not to like her? because other people didnt like her so you have to be a pathetic little follower. your life is pathetic , nobody fucking likes you becasue you are a pathelogical liar. You make shit up to make yourself sound cool , when in all reality you just sound like a complete jackass , and i didnt call you out on it becasue i didnt want to embarass you in front of friends but now im kinda wishing i did. You sit there acting like your a fucking 13 year old , poking fun at my weight? SERIOUSLY? we BOTH KNOW how much you weigh and that it is FAR more than i weigh , so i would learn how to figure that shit out before you say it if i were you. And then telling me that you hope my life sucks? LMFAO you really have nothing better to do then sit there and try and make me feel bad... REALLY? ahah i LOVE my life and the fact that yours is SO PATHETIC that you have to try and bash mine, really makes me feel sorry for you. You are the apitomy of a DISGUSTING person. and trust when i say that karmas a big bitch and she doesnt care about you thats for sure. so good luck with your sad pathetic life at big al's beauty school around the corner .

EW

So , I am completely disgusted with the last post that I put on here, so disgusted that i had to take it off. I don`t know what i was thinking back then but i can inform you that NO I don`t have ANY feelings for Aaron. I thought i did but i was SORELY mistaken. I cant believe i actually thought i did. My boyfriend is the only one for me , I would never compromise that relationship and i cant believe i even said what i said about aaron because i was completely wrong. He may be good looking, but he is NOT the type of guy i would EVER maintain a "flirtatious relationship" with like i stated before. He is a dog, a disgusting dirty dog and i dont want to maintain a flirtatious relationship with anybody besides my boyfriend, LET ALONE AARON . im completely grossed out with what i wrote and for anyone who actually read it, i am so sorry you had to read that . i feel stupid and ridiculous for writing something that idiotic on here, even though it is my blog, i honestly dont know what in the world came over me when i decided to write that. But let me tell you why i have a sudden change of heart. well not sudden, but you know what i mean,
Aaron , as i described him, is a man i work with. He works as a loss prevention officer at my work. He is extremely flirty and perverted. He is much much older than i am ( i`m turning 19, hes 26) and he tried very hard to get me to give in and hook up with him while i am OBVIOUSLY currently with my wonderful boyfriend . When i blatantly rejected him from his offer for me to go to toronto (if you read my other blog you know what im talking about ) by completely ignoring his existence, he took to making fun of my boyfriend and the way he dresses mainly because he is jealous. This started to cause a big problem with me and my boyfriend because he started to think that i had feelings for aaron , which , i would like to make this PERFECTLY clear because i was obviously dillusional before... i DO NOT and NEVER DID have feelings for aaron. I thought i did , but as i said , i was MISTAKEN. definitely. but anyways, this caused a big problem for me and my boyfriend because obviously he got mad that aaron was making fun of him and i didnt do anything about it. he basically told me that he wanted to fight aaron, and i told him that if he cared about me keeping my job , then he wouldnt do something stupid like that. he doesnt really understand that his actions have consequences .


basically i just wanted to make clear that i was retracting any and all previous statements in my last blog , becasue reading them now i feel like a full blown idiot.

xoxo
Kristen

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Time and again.

Lately i have been so confused about everything. Now that i am done highschool, and im not going to college until next year, i have so much free time when im not working. Real life is forming itself in front of me and im not sure if i am ready for it, suddenly im worrying about paying bills and moving out and getting my own appartment. Things that not so long ago were just mere dreams. Living at home is not going so well lately what with my moms boyfriend and i not getting along and just the things that i have to put up with. I enjoy working where i do because i like a lot of the people that i work with, but i dont want to be working there for too much longer. I want to move out of my house and in with my boyfriend because whenever im here i feel so much better and i just feel so much more free and i just love the idea of being an adult and starting my own life, but at the same time, ive obviously lived with my mom my whole life and the thought of moving out my house is a little scary. There are a lot of things that i have to think about before i make such a decision, especially the fact that i have a lot of financial resposibilities now . One of the only reasons that i was holding back on moving before was because i had my puppy to worry about and i would definitely miss him way too much to leave him, but then my mom went and gave him away. I was completely devestated , and he was really my only reason to stay besides my mom . Anyways, i have a lot of things to think about.

P.S your fucking pathetic bitch,

get a life.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I Guess Time Flys When Youre Not Having Fun Aswell.

I think that as i continue to grow older, i learn more and more everyday. Ive been living in Brantford for almost a year now. Man how time goes by fast. Youd think that by now i would have new friends and a brand new life. Well you would be wrong. For some reason i just cant seem to bring myself to talk to people, well i guess thats not neccessarily true, because i have made many friends at work. But at school i am still just a simple nobody, who nobody cares about. Going off to college in the summer is something that im not so sure im ready for, but i can feel that i need to take that next step in my life. Things at home havent been going very well lately and i feel trapped in my own home. My mom has completely sided with her boyfriend on everything, its like no matter what i do the bad will ALWAYS outweigh the good. I may sound like a baby but, its not fair. She blames me not having a life here on the fact that i refuse to make friends, which , is completely not true. I have tried to make friends but for some reason its just not clicking here. At work i have many friends and i dont know how i did it there but i just cant seem to do it here. I need to take this next step in my life because i cant be here anymore, I cant stand the outrageous rules that have been put into affect at my house, i cant stand the constant bitching and always having to watch everything i do. They tell me that i should be grateful to live here and grateful to live in the house that i live in because in oakville my house wasnt nearly as good as this one. I plan on living with my boyfriend when i move away for college and my moms boyfriend seems to think this is a bad idea because, basically his house isnt as nice as ours. I dont know how one person can be so materialistic and just utterly pathetic as to base everything on what someone has. My moms boyfriend is one of the most pompous, arrogant, ignorant, OCD, self-centered people i have ever met. I cant live in that house anymore, i just cant do it. I want to start my own life, be who i am. They ruined the high school experience for me and dont even care. They completely took everything from me, TWICE, and all they can tell me is that i should be grateful, because living in Brantford is supposidely one of the greatest things that has happened to me because there are so much more opportunities here. What they fail to notice is that the opportunities and what not that they speak of, are for THEM, they dont know what i want in life, they dont know what i want to do, and being to 3 different high schools, is DEFINITELY not what i wanted. Im going to miss out on everything, i didnt get to play volleyball for my last year of high school because there were no announcements telling me when they would be, yet my mom seems to think its because i didnt even try, and of course, she knows everything. Im going to be this huge loser at prom... if i even go... because i have virtually no friends and it will just be me and my boyfriend. I wanted to walk into prom wioth my boyfriend on my arm, walking into a group of friends and having what is supposed to be one of the greatest nights of my life. Now its just going to be akward and completely wierd because i dont really know anyone, so im going to be walking into a prom full of strangers looking awkard and loser-ish.
Im grateful though, that i do have a boyfriend who supports me, even though we have some stuff with the distance that we currently have to work through.
I cannot wait until the day where i get to take that next step into my future, and get away from all this . I dont belong here and i know i dont.
Who knows what the future has in store, i guess ill know when i go shopping.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

its amazing.
the things you find out from the people who are supposed to love you most.
i really can not believe this past week, someone who i thought was my best friend has decided that her problems are always going to be more important than mine, and you know what, im finally okay with that .. because im not going to deal with it anymore.
tell me that you wont talk to me until i breakup with my boyfriend, your joking me right?
your the one who is supposed to be there for me, but you cant even do that, so i say good riddence, and so does my entire family.
youve done this to yourself, dont come crawling back to me, because i really could never deal with it in the first place, and i dont want to be back in that position. sorry.
actually you know what, im not sorry, ive been sorry for too long and im not going to be anymore
this is all you my friend.
you deal with it. by yourself.
because i really am done, you just made it easier for me...
your fault, your problem, your mess. im done with trying to be there for you when you have no intention of being here for me, i should have seen it that way all along, and deep down i always knew, but i stuck by you, i defended you to the worlds end... not anymore.
your just a part of my past now, the best friend that never really was a friend. only when she felt like it.
well things change , and this time.. its for the better.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

It has happened now.
ive moved away from the life i was becoming so comfortable with ,
ive come here now being forced to start a whole new life. but no worries, the past is still with me, my friends, my boyfriend.
Now that i have moved an hour away from my comfort zone, im a little, no, a lot scared. things arent the same here, i have to get used to living this new life. but of course, with the end of the old follows the beginning of the new.
And i dont neccissarily consider me moving away to be the end of anything.
In fact, it is the start of a bunch of great things.
the start of my first long distance relationship
the start of my journey to becoming an adult, what with getting my drivers licence and all.
and just the start of a chance to make what i want of myself.
i just got a new puppy yesterday, and he is the cutest thing. change can sometimes be good.
Of course being so far away from everyone back home is extremely hard.. there is nothing i can do about it till i graduate, so i might as well make the most of it until then.
I am more surprised in my boyfriend than anyone else, the fact that he is showing me such strength in sticking with me and having hope, makes me so happy i could cry. because he is showing a strenght that has rubbed off onto me, and helped me adapt better where i am now .
i am so proud of him.


i am really going to miss my old town, but i will be back there every chance i get.
and i know that this isnt the end, its only a new beginning.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I have been changing lots of things about myself. for the better. Ive been more connected with everything and ive been much more appreciative of what i have. but once again, i have something to rant about. There always is something.
I realized that i wrote my last blog about my friends , and how that was all said in the rage of a bad day gone worse.
but this is no bad day, this is just something that REALLY needs to be said. Some people just need to wake up and know when to get off their high horse and realize that they are NOT the king shit. or in thise case, queen shit.
So you and your boyfriend had a little trouble. maybe it wasnt meant to be in the first place. dont try and blame everything on one party. you are as responsible as he is, actually worse. You broke up with him.
you say that you are over him and that he is erased from your life.
STOP OBSESSING ! maybe does your behaviour remind you of a certain little obsessed blonde bitch who you are now the spitting image of! the person you say you hate the most, you are most like.
GET OVER YOURSELF.
NOBODY forced you into this relationship, nobody forced you to stay in it. NOBODY IS GOING TO SYMPATHIZE WITH YOU! you are honestly the most pathetic person, what do you think calling the cops on this person is going to do ? make him want you more? make him change for you ? NO! he DOESNT WANT YOU ANYMORE. you had your chance and you blew it . This guy is one of my great friends and i really think you should stop fucking around with his head . stop being a little bitch , and get over the fact that you are BROKEN UP. kay sweetheart, do you U N D E R S T A N D that! seriously, this makes me so mad because i have to listen to your bullshit from him, and im tired of it. its so fucking stupid what your doing to him, most of the things you say he did to you, you could have easily prevented, but you DIDNT.! you decided to stay in the relationship. As much as he said and did some not nice things, LOOK AT YOURSELF. look at how you are looking for sympathy from others. seriously, get over yourself. your broken up , its done with. stop dragging this shit on. NOBODY cares. he doesnt want you, he doesnt want anything to do with you.
OH and another thing. go ahead and yell at the messenger, you tell someone something like you are going to call the cops on your ex and you expect the person you were talking to (WHO IS IS FRIEND) not to tell him ? like who the fuck do you think you are! you had absolutely no right to yell at him for that and as a matter of fact, you have absolutly no right to be opening your mouth about your ex and his family in public, aka on this blog site. you should be fucking ashamed of yourself. it is not your business to be posting online.
and you knwo what, go ahead and say that this whole thing is not my business but you know what.
that boy, who you so easily put down along with his family, IS MY BUSINESS. whether you fucking like it or not.